Brigham City Temple

I am so glad we were able to go to the Open House of this Temple. It is so beautiful! We were able to take the elevator. :)

Summer

Now that we are settled in our new place I have time to record the memories! We have been up to a few things this summer, not as many as normal since pregnancy and summer don't mix...Dylan has had fun outside and at Bear Lake. We went to the cabin with my family for a weekend at Bear Lake which has become a fun tradition each year. Although it was fun, Dylan was a little skiddish around his little cousin Logan, the pictures can show all.

The move.

Wow! Dave and I are exhausted from our move. It is definitely hard moving everything up from a basement apartment and then up 3 flights of stairs. Dave was so awesome and we had a few guys from our ward help us out. We are so thankful for them, Dave was doing everything on his own, since me being prego is not a lifting boxes condition. It must be our thing, moving each time I'm prego, let's hope I'm not the next time, it's hard for me to sit and watch, it's more stressful on me than physically helping. We also seem to move when both of our families are out of town or too busy to help. I am so thankful again for the guys in our old ward, one of them even had a family baptism to go to, and another had plans, but they both dropped everything to help us. I will be forever grateful for their help! I have been super busy unpacking and making our apartment a home. Dylan is not liking the change, and is having a hard time sleeping in his new room, and not being able to go outside and on walks with Grandma. We have been welcomed emensely by our new neighbors and it seems like we found a nice place to live. I'm excited to get into our ward and meet some friends, and find some mommies to do playdates with. I can finally say that a smidgen of happiness has returned to me again, and I will hopefully return to my old happy self, but a better self as well.

Our own life.

We finally did it! We made the plunge into a place of our own. Now some of you might wonder why we lived with Dave's parents for almost 3 years, let's just say it's complicated. The main reason we moved there in the first place was because I was quitting my full time job to be a stay at home mom, and looking at finances it was best to move there for a few months or until the hospital bills stopped rolling in. Dave was also going to school and working, and it was hard for him to get the hours he needed to support us. Eventually we realized that there was going to be no way possible to move out to a place nice enough for a baby to roam in that we could afford. The places we could afford had mold, or insulation issues...etc. Now after hearing this you are probably wondering why I didn't go back to work. We figured that paying for childcare plus me working wouldn't even be worth it. We still wouldn't be able to afford all of the bills that life has. Not only that, but just about this time Dave lost his job. So we were definitely in a pickle. We were just thankful that we were living with Dave's parents still, and we are so very thankful for them, and all they did to help support us. I don't know if many people understand my side of the living situation. Yes, I was extremely grateful for the financial support and a really nice place to live. But, when you live with your parents and you are adults, you all of the sudden become their teenagers again. There is no independance that can exist in this situation. I felt like I didn't have my own life, and I couldn't be the me that I am. That sounds weird I know, but everyone has there own self happiness that they don't share with other people that we want to keep as our own. Some of us might dance and sing to really loud abnoxious music, or run around the house in our undies, private things like that, that are fun and random. Living with my in-laws also impeded greatly on my marriage. Dave's parents would ask him to do something for them and he would do it no questions asked. Yet if I needed his help or time with him (the small amount of time we had) he would put me last, even if I asked him for help first. I don't want to come off selfish, but when you are constantly put last in a relationship, it doesn't exactly work well. It was incredibly frustrating, and I felt like a single teenage mom. Eventually I applied Dave to a job at Convergys, since his applying was non-existant, and he got a job there 5 months after he lost the one he had at Sam's Club. Dave then graduated the upcoming May 2012, and Dylan and I were finally able to have him back in our lives, and finally move out! We are still super poor, but after almost 3 years of trial and frustration, Dave gave into a move and I we are finally able to start back into our own life. Sooo Happy!!